call me [or so says blondie]

Can you believe this is the first time i've felt i have the time to sit and post anything on any of my blogs? Wow! There isn't much relief coming in the future, either. I need to study for job interviews [teacher interviews are tough!], apply for the Bellingham School District.....and i haven't heard anything from Mt. Vernon yet. I can only assume it means they didn't find me qualified for the position.

Just thinking of that brings on the sludge. What else can i call it. That deep fear and anxiety that balls right inside the bottom of my sternum. I am trying to cognitively change this process of... what can i call it? When i start feeling this way i get immobile. Like it's my mind;s way of protecting me. I am sure it's a learned reaction from childhood. *sigh* I want to be stronger than that!

I am finishing up a knitting project i started in October- Mark's scarf should be done this week. I put it down a couple times too extensively- once for over a onth i believe. Ha! And it was his christmas present. He has been very obliging in this belated present. In fact, he is just elated i am making him something.

I have to buy conservative interview clothes- like jacket & skirt, or pantsuit. Eeeek. I am going to try to consignment store today. I was at the mall with a girlfriend yesterday and saw the prices in JC Penney's were too much for me. $60 for a jacket, $40 for pants and $20 for a shirt. Crazy! But i have to make an impression and this is what you need.

My hips are sore from yoga.

I am eating a delicious pear.

bmn k

[that was me trying to swipe off cat hair from the keyboard]

Heart of Glass by Blondie brings strange deep emotional recall to me.

I just want to crawl deeper into the covers and watch one of the many movies i have from the library.

I miss you my Muse.